Cycling of Consciousness

Cycling of Consciousness is the precursor to something else.

Many awake folks experience new awakenings regularly. What I’ve noticed is each of these cycles have the same pattern.

Initially, there’s a grand overview like I am everything. Then, there is a second experience like, I am nothing. Finally, I am everything and nothing simultaneously and therefore whole again.

This really is the rediscovery of knowing yourself to be complete, whole or brahmam, using vedic terminology.

It sounds simple and benign, After the fact. But when you’re going through the experience it can be traumatic. Finding yourself to be either everything or nothing is okay but when both are experienced as your whole self and you are alternating between them you soon find yourself in limbo. Lost in no-man's land asking, “Which one is it? Which am I?” It’s psychologically painful.

The in-between state, many times is experienced as, “the dark night of the soul”.

It takes the alternation of awareness to mature to a simultaneous awareness to get relief. Once one is able to grow past the seeming duality to arrive at singularity the cycle is complete. We find ourselves to be whole again.

Within the growth of Brahman Consciousness, there is the development of the Brahma Sutras. This “cycling” of consciousness is the living day-to-day version of the Brahma Sutras. The actual stitching together of Brahman Consciousness. The putting together of wholeness, endlessly.

“Curving back on my own nature, I create, again and again”. Bhagavad Gita ch 9 v 8.

Play Ground of Enlightenment

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Every one of these realms is complete, full, whole... Is a study or playground unto itself, with endless possibilities. Each holds a foundation for its own discipline, could easily be the basis for a belief system, a religion. But in reality it’s simply another face of the Infinite, endlessly complex and surprisingly simple and even nonexistent, all phases experienced simultaneously in a continuum of finely layered evolutions. Overwhelmingly beautiful resting in its own nature. Beauty beyond description. Painfully exquisite. (Pause to experience)

For the enlightened these realities are revolving play grounds experienced either with eyes closed or open, accessible all the time.

What I find interesting in the entertainment of these experiences is the sense of feeling the limits of our nervous systems. One knows internally that the experience can be richer because it’s all rooted in infinity so there is no limit to each reality. The limit rests in the vehicle’s ability to experience those specific infinities. Experience has limits. Infinity does not.

Self vs No Self

There is a stage of consciousness development that renders us as everything. The self has grown to the level of Self. A grand Self. A super Self. A Self that allows us to say, "I am Everything and Everything is Me."

But in this search for more, which seems ridiculous, like how can there be more, when one is Everything, nevertheless, ones own nature still feels there is “more” so, yes, the search does continue. And, what is found?

An experience beyond identity. An experience that transcends the Self. Where one is left without identity. A state of "No Self." Emptiness in its purest sense. The state of the Uncreated. Is-ness alone. Pure Existence. That which has no beginning, middle or end. That, that has always been.

At this point in our consciousness development we are left resting in our greatest doubt. We find ourselves asking, “Which is it? What am I? Self or No Self? The answer comes, sometimes not right away. Some souls end up pondering this for quite some time. In some ways it’s never resolved. The answer to, “Am I Self or No Self?” Is, Yes.

If you know my writing, you know I’m fond of these dichotomies, reason being, that is the experience. The entertaining of two opposing realities lived as one. This structure of psychology is nonlinear but true to the actual experience. The coexistence of Self (Everything) with No Self (Nothing) on equal footing. This is an absolute reality. The struggle between them is the ultimate dark night of the soul.

In the venue of academics it’s strange enough to ponder this but when taken into the realm of understanding of one own psychology, it’s impossible but somehow absolutely real.

Give it a moment to sink in.

Does Small Self need to be Conquered to Gain Enlightenment?

Seems that many have found a way to know the expanse of their own infinity while still expressing 'small-self' traits. Stretching consciousness to unboundedness does not exclude anything of what we were before this awakened state. Enlightenment is not a zero-sum game, it's rather a play of infinite inclusion. So, everything we were before is simply added to the grandness of who or what we are now.

I often see so many individuals place qualifier on themselves before they will allow their enlightenment. Simple question I pose is, "What's holding you back?"  I then address these obstacles until the client realizes they are holding themselves back by giving power to these silly little barriers. 

Our infinite nature has the ability to incorporate All that we are and still know its Self.

Glory of One Pointedness

One Pointedness comes from living in the moment. Simply direct your attention to, Now. Even say it mentally to affirm the experience. Something like, ‘Be in this moment’. Or ‘Experience Now’. 

As one pointedness begins to take hold in your psychology notice that it has a physiological correlate in the heart. Let the attention go there. Rest there. Be there. 

The heart will open like a porthole into pure being-ness. Go through it. Rest there. 

Enlightenment Dark?

Your new enlightenment - after the honeymoon. Usually what one finds is, it's hard to be part of the old world or habits after your awakening. It’s kind of an issue of honesty. Yet... What about those responsibilities? Internal beauty. Yet... External confusion. Am I being honest to myself? Or do I need to take care of the others? Maybe now that I’m enlightened I really don’t need to be on the planet anymore? Now that's really dark but it happens.

Lots to think about and that’s the problem. Thinking.

The new world you are now a part of is huge and plays by a different set of rules. One being life is now non-linear. You will have to find a way to be comfortable with uncertainty. You are living in the Now, the Moment. Planning now takes a backseat to the Moment. Planning is based in something of a future nature usually based on something in the past. Past and future don’t disappear, they just aren’t dominant anymore. Again, honesty prevails. The honesty of the Moment.

As you open to your new found infinite nature, options are endless. How do you digest that? You don’t. You can’t. Our nervous systems don’t have the bandwidth. 

Here’s where the issues arise for the newly minted enlightened and even the soon to be enlightened. 

Due to old habits we attempt to fit our new reality into our old life. Sometimes there’s a match here and there but for the most part it’s a mismatch. 

Honestly, the most comfortable solution is just "Letting Go". Allow yourself to be a faithful servant to divinity, the giver of the grace which you now realize is your true nature, that beautiful infinity that’s allowed you to know God. Just live baby. Just live.